haiz... life is unfair i realise... well, n i really can sense the world is getting scarier... u will nv noe how cunning a person can be, hu can backstab u etc... even ur closest frenz... is tt wat is happening in society? i seriously feel tt i made the wrong choice coming 2 hc... now i noe y si ngah dun wanan come... a clever gal, but was too late when i realise the reason 4 not coming...
life isnt as great as be4... pple started 2 change, haiz... i wonder wat will my life be if i made the same choice as si ngah? happier? yah, i think so... so wat i;m in 1 of the top sch in s'pore? makes no diff lah, look, i was in ny? so? all rubbish lah... if u r clever, u will be clever no matter where u go... wat 4 force urself into a world u r not suppose2 be there? tt only make ur life even more miserable... how much i hope i can go back pri sch... only if...
wat if i nv choose track as my cca? perhaps i can enjoy wat i wanna learn, can experience more things etc... n y am i in hc huh? i still dun understand.... 4 a better grade? 4 wat i wnana be, i dun think i need a better grade... then y am i in hc? oh... wat a move? perhaps i should think properly be4 making this decision... well, is too late... i came into a world full of genius, n i seems 2 be the lost 1 trying 2 find a way out... still searching, wondering is there an exit? can i survive be4 i reach the exit? i hope i can, becuz i was the 1 hu made the choice 2 enter this world... so i muz get out of this world on my own... nobody can help mi... they only can encourage mi 2 go on, give mi the support... haiz... i muz find the way myself...
i hope after finding the exit, i wun step into a world like this anymore... enough of it... sickening... ARGH!! wat a wrong move?!!!
